Changes

Hello and welcome back to my weekly thoughts

Today I will talk about how it feels to change

Most days when I wake up everything feels generally comparable to the previous day, of course there are exceptions, sometimes I'm offered a chance to try something that genuinely alters the perception I have of myself, but on an average day I feel just about the same as always.

Which is interesting because I've definitely changed throughout my life a great deal, and not all of these changes were things I decided in a moment. No, there's been a large amount of gradual change for certain.

Sometimes it gets me thinking, what strech of time did some of these changes take place over? I may have been generally the same person yesterday, but what about last week? last month? how about several months? Is there an exact point in time where you could say I changed into who I am now, or am I just slightly different every day and you can only see the impact of each change when looking at the big picture? Am I actually as different from the past as I think myself to be?

All of these are mostly unanswerable, and even if you could answer them there isn't much of a point usually, simply something to play with in my mind. There's one more question though, one that I do find important, am I happy with how I've changed?

It's a hard question to solve, though much more possible than any of the other questions listed, but I think the answer changes frequently. This is because I myself am changing frequently, so I'm constantly adding pieces that need to be evaluated, not to mention my perception of every part of me changes often, so I must also revaluate each piece of me in regular intervals.

It's a lot to think about...

Either way, all of this is a little existential and after a while my head starts to spin, maybe everything is okay just as long as I'm happy with it.

And with that I shall depart, as always thanks for reading, and have a great day. :)